Big Brother 8 Daniele Donato Live Journal: July 2001 - Dec 2001

Link: 241dani

Silence is a Secret a Weapon in disguse...

Woah today I got sunburned at the park.eek!!

Sometimes its weird because you think you have a bunch of friends you an really count on but when it comes time for the counting part they bail out. I guess its kind of like a test though, but life in general is a test too.

I cling to words i can not say

Not today, maybe not ever, you lost me maybe foever...

Blue Monday
Oh today was a Looong day!! but tonight was fun fun! I saw Inflatable Friends today, Derek told me they arent good live, but hes wrong! They were really swell. and It was blue monday at chain so like they play all this 80s!! ahh what a beautiful thing hehe. I was gona skank, but shauna was sitting in the back the whole time and i didnt want to by myself :( but it was real coOl because there was only like 20 people there. Very Enjoyable. but yeah.. i think i have fever now and im tired.. oh and OMG im so happy i know some of the nicest people ever!! my friend got me a ticket to the Aquabat/Zebrahead show for my birthdy! Im so happy, because i was really upset i wasnt gonna be able to go, but now i am!! yay!! i luv you shauna!! tree-hee-hee

bleh
Todays gonna be boring, Im not doing anything~ as always. But i'm supposed to be going to practice, but I'm rebeling. hehe Their doing weight lifting and thats not my deal so Im ditching lol. but yeah.. maybe i can talk my grandma into taking me to rent a video. O im so thrilled, 10 days till RBF!!! yay!! oh but its sucky because i was hoping i'd be able to go see allister on the 18th, but i dont think i canow because thats my AYSO coach just called and said the 18th s our first game!!! ugh!! if i cant go, im gonna be really bummed

Being Wong Never Felt so right
Jeez Sayde you kept telling me I never write in here and ever since that moment, I'm addiced!! ahhh!!` Well I just got done watching Sugar and Spice, Terrible ending!!! My Oh My! but yeah... and tha Head over heals movie was awful!! Just thought I'd share. hehe. Hey its August!! lol

on the midnight out, she cries MORE MORE MORE
Im watching Billy Idol AGAIN on MTV 20 thing! LOL i love Billy Idol! But yeah I'm really bored!! I have practice tomorrow so at least I wont be sitting on my butt all day doing nothing AGAIN!! That's no fun... thats my life.. aw man~ Sayde have fun @ Warped tomorrow, or rather today.

Youve been hit by a smOOth criminal
Today was crap. I was supposed to have practice today but nooo. Only me and Jenn showed up [Jenns our co-coach she played on the team last year]. But its stoOpid because our team sux and they wonder why... duh.... But today was another boring day. did NADA!! sucky i do say.

Hmm. I miss Shaun so much! :( hes been gone a month now on his road trip. They're in Tulsa at Justin's uncle' house because they were having car trouble. They should be onthe road agian tomorrow and back soon. i hope so **

Well Bob you probably are on your way back from six flags~! ::jealous::

Chelle's mad at me AGAIN for who knows why. Its really fusterating though cuz like she gets mad at me ALL the time!! But the worst part is that most of the times i didnt even do anything. :(

I rented 3movies today, only watched 2 so far.
Snatch= that was a very interesting movie, brad pitt is a good actor, hes plays such interestin roles.
All i Wanna do= that was funny/cute. thats all

A New Thing
OH My goOdneSs!! I actually did stuff today. What a new experience for me.

Last night, I was talking to Derek on the phone till 1 and then I was wide awake, so I watched Sweet November [very cute, but very sad movie]. So I didn't go t sleep till about 4.

I woke up at like 8 something so I was so exhausted!! I went to youth group and after youth group we all went to Red Robin for lunch. Then I hung out with Bryan [he's perty cute :P] for a little while afterwards.

My Ayso coach called when i was gone. First day of practice is Tuesday at 6pm-8:30, but i have practice at school on tuesday from 1-4:30 so I dont know if i want to go to school practie. But if i don't, my coach will get all pissy. But i don't wanna be practicing soccer 6 hours in one day!! Plus I don't think thats goOd for your body anyways. lol I'll get out of it somehow.

Well that's about it. 15 days left till my birthday....yay!!

'Love the girl that holds the world in a paper cup. come on and drink it up!'
Dum De Doo. I woke up at 12:30 again today. EeEk. Aw well. I fell asleep at 4, so I needed the sleep. LOL. But it sucks because Lately I have been wide awake till around 4am. and Its not too fun. Last night I watched Romeo and Juliet before I fell asleep though. I absolutely adore that movie.

It was about 90 degrees here today!! ugh~ I hate the sun. I've been dying for it to rain! I'm going through rain withdrawals. I heard it was going to be about 90 all week! bleh..

I haven't eaten all day!! [If you know me you're probably in amazement] There's not one freaking thing to eat in my entire house!! My grandma made dinner ... for everyone except me!! So Now I'm refusing the crap she's offering me and I'm not eating today. Hopefully I'll make it... If Not, I'll type out my will later tonight when nobody's online.

I need to go get my tickets for the Slow Gherkin/**SUBURBAN LEGENDS** show on the 16th. I just haven't gotten around to it yet i guess. Plus I need to find out if Shaun's going to go with me, but he's not back from his road trip yet... I'll probably just end up getting two tickets just in case because my grandma is paying for them. Kinda like part of my birthday gift.

I really want the Alien Ant Farm CD!! lol I watched TRL today just because they were on. My oh My. But yeah they're really neato.

That's about it. Tomorrow I have practice so I wont be a bum all day. I'm not going to practice at school though. I decided that if they don't call to tell me things I'm just not doing them. I'm sick and tired of it [Like last time when nobody showed up]. It's total BS and I'm not gonna put up with it so I don't care what my coach says.

I was just listening to New Found Glory, and now I have the WOrST headache!! dangitt.

fOr dEreK
ok well Last night, Derek was informing me how boring my journal was... thanx. lol. I tried to explain to him before that it's only boring because I keep all my deep dark fantasies and desires of him elsewhere. Oh by the way ...sorry Sayde, but I'd skip that hot sweaty sex for Derek any day. oh baby. huh? well thats about all.

A bad night
ok this is gonna being a boring post.

Today was my first AYSO practice it was alright. Everyone seems really nice so that's goOd.

I think I'm sick. I hate being sick. ShOot me to put me out of my misery please.

My grandmother is the most awful person in the world. I dont know, I guess since technically old woman dont get PMS anymore, its just there ALL the time... ugh!! I detest her right now. but oh well.

Its weird because it always like so: Just when everything starts going your way, and life seems 'wonderful' something really crappy will happen and youre back down to your ever so low point. But whatever im over it

"this is the hell that is my life" - Zebrahead
ok so Let's say 5 minutes ago ... or so. I just remembered what it's like to hate everyone and everything. I honestly wish you had the choice of being born rather then it being up to two horny people that just want to screw eachother. I really abhor both of my grandparents. They're the jerks of the century. If you try to talk to somebody why the hell are you gonna tell them to shut up. Don't you want their respect? Obviously some people couldn't care less. I hate being young, I just want to be old enough to live my own life F A R away from my grandparents, hell far away from almost everyone I know. All they do is go out of their way to make my life a living hell. Don't you want people to like you? I mean why the hell are you going to say things that make people hate you so much. Nobody in my family can have a civil conversation. Just talk like a damn human being. Ever since my brother moved out things seem to have been easier, but now hell rises in the house where I am yet again. I just hate being dictated by two people that don't know jack. Look at their lives my oh my I would never want to be like them. Thank you for being an example for what I will never EVER choose to be. Let me live my life and I'll guarantee you that it will be a hell of a lot better then 100xs better yours.

"You'd feel beter if you'd vent, put your fustrations into four letter words" -Incubus

Ok today was a goOd day. Boring yes, but goOd nonetheless. After a huge fight with my grandparents yesterday and then a talk with my grandma later last night I'm getting my way. lol. sO yeah it feels goOd :P. Ummm gawd theres nothing really to talk about...

OH! YaY!! Tomorrow is RBF~! Wooo I'm so thrilled I cant even express. I'm starting to get sick to my stomach I'm so excited lol. See what gOod music can do to a person??? Jeez.

Hopefully I'll actually get some sleep tonight. . . Though I highly doubt it, I will try.

"That same old crowd that drags me down, another day in a boring town."

'I'll be your poison and your pain, I'll be your struggle to be sane.' - Bush
yay!!! RBF tonight!!! I'm so excited lol. I'm all decked out with my 'i heart RBF' shirt. tee-hee. fun fun. Derek's coming over at 3 so I need to start getting ready soon. duh.. lol

Last night I was going to try to go to bed early and get some sleep, I even promised myself, but nooo lol. I betrayed my own promise, what a loser. Well, see I was right about to sign off line but then Sayde came on and I couldn't NOT talk to her, I adore you too much my dearest Sayde :P So I talked to Sayde till 1am. Then Derek imed me: 'Call Now' and signs off lol. So I called Derek and we talked till about 2:35ish. Then I was like bouncing off the walls, well actually I was really just frolicking through the hall way. tee-hee. Then I watched Jay Leno. Then I fall asleep after 3:30! Yeah, going to bed real early huh. lol Jeez

So This morning I woke up and vacuumed my bedroom and made my bed, now I'm starving [as always lol] so I sent my grandmother on a food mission. LOL. Shes getting me food. yum yum. Well, Ok I'm through. I'm so excited though RBF~ yay and Aquabats tomorrow. But im depressed because Zebrahead isn't playing :( they were like the highlight of tomorrow or like the light in general, hehe but aw well I'll get over it.. soOn..

"It wasn't a rock! It was a rock Lobsterrrrrr!" tee-hee

My Weekend galore
Holy Guacamole~! Ok wOah. I had a kick butt weekend yo. Ok so Friday Derek comes and picked me up at 4:30ish. and Then we went straight to The Sun Theater because Derek lost his ticket so we go to get another, but its all sold out~ And Well out of the blue some guy comes up to us and goes do you need an extra ticket and dereks all yes, how much and the dude just gave it to him for free so that was awesome.

Ok so we go in and 'The movie life' was playing. eeew lol awful, awful band!! hehe. umm, OH then Home Grown played Theyre not good either. Jeez I only like one of their songs. But Goldfinger was eh... ok. Not really my deal, but ok. They did this one thing where they came dressed up like destiny's child and started singing im a survivor. OMG great stuff~ but yeah.. lol then RBF hit the stage. My Oh My talk about Rocking the Casbah! They were freaking awesome, as always!! Aaron's one sexay fellow. *mmmm* tee-hee. So me and Jessica were in the skank pit the whole time. Good stuff~ Skankin it up yo. Sayde I was skankin for you too~! It was so awesome though. gawd. But they didnt do an encore :( they freaking always do encores, at freaking HOB they did 2 encores. So thats BS that they didnt ugh~ Oh and i got an RBF pick ahhh~ fun fun

So After the show we go back to Jessicas and spend the night. We fell asleep at 6am and woke up at 9!! HOLY MOLEY. but see i wasnt tired. But right now Im exhausted!! but back to my story... So today we got to the Sun theater about 12:45ish and it was sooo fun!! There was like no freaking body there!! it was great! I cant even begin to tell you how much i enjoyed myself!! There was all these 'chick punk rawk' bands it was soo boring lol but like it was hilarious cuz we were like spazing out [me and jessica] I think at times we were embarrassing shauna. :P so then OPM came on and me and jessica wanted to 'get our groove on' to that 'heaven is a halfpike' song. Oh yeah~ The lead singer was a hottie but he said 'forget that straight edge sh*t, its all about the herbs' how effing not attractive is that yo? bleh. But ok so Voo Doo Glow skulls.. hmm The music is swell, but the lead singers voice ugh. i dunno its too hard core for me. OK so Then Aquabats come out and rock the stage! My Oh My it was fun fun. In the skank pit most of the time~! And Yeah it was fun. Thank you soooo much shauna. I luv you sexay. haha. no but seriously THANK YOU! Ok so now here I am grown up and 22... haha woah that came from nowhere. But anyways so I'm now online straining myself to stay awake! Im sooo exhausted. My eyes are starting to get puffy because im so0o0o0o tired so as jessica said many MANY times today 'I'll catch you on the flip side"

"I want a girl with a short skirt and a Looooong jacket" -Cake
Annie are you ok? are you ok Annie? aow tee-hee

Ok I'm bored out of mind mind. :\ SL left for their week tour with Slow Gherkin today so Derek's not online so I have nobody to talk too. bleh. And Sayde had to leave~ lol I feel so alone~

Today was perty much boring. I woke up at 12:30, and was really bored so I went to Lindsay's house. We talked about lots of stuff. I hadn't seen her in quite some time. I dunno why though she lives like 3 blocks away. I'm a reject lol. So yeah it was nice talking to her.

I reelie wanna go to a movie~!! bleh I dont get out much anymore. But Im excited for 2 reasons~!... #1 Thursday is The Slow Gherkin Suburban Legends show @ the glass house and im reelie thrilled about that! #2 I finally figured out what color I'm gonna dye my hair. I'm gonna dye it red with blonde streaks throughout the whole thing so it looks like red and blonde streaks! yay. I'm reelie excited but I hope it turns out nice. Oh and I think Shaun's back!!! If he is im going to be wicked happy. Hopefully he is and He'll be able to go to the show with me on Thursday as planned.

YAY 7 days till My birthday well actually 6 now that it's actually Tuesday.

Bleh Jenn called tonight [I wasn't home though] so that means I have to go to practice tomorrow but I also have AYSO practice~ Man Oh Man that sux hard core yo. AND.. There is 22 days left till school!! ::tear:: I'm seriously upset about that!! I abhor school. I need to go school shopping, but I don't wanna think about that crap yet~! guh but I guess I have too. ::tear:: I'm reelie hoping for a good year though I'm well in need of one, last 2 school years were sucky as heck. Plus I'm also hoping for a few hot guys [preferably rude boys] because A) There's like 3 [at the most~] hot guys in our entire school!! and B) There are NO rude boys at my school!! what the heck is up with that BS?!?!?! It's painful!! ok well I'm through.

Bunch of Nothingness
Hmm today was homo. I went to school to go to practice, but NOBODY was there yet AGAIN. So I'm not going to any more practices this summer for school. Its complete crap. so yeah. Then tonight I had AYSO practice it was OK, very tiring though. I'm so outta shape, its ridiculous. There's this one girl Carrie and she's awesome. She's really sweet and all so hopefully I'll make some friends lol. Gawd I cant stop thinking about how school is coming up. Shoot me now~

Rock the Casbah***
YAY~!! Yesterday was freaking awesome. tee-hee
7:00~ Thats when I woke up!! I went and got my hair done. I think it looks neato, but i dunno it kinda looks weird now or something. oh well So yeah Then I was trying all day to find somebody to go with me to the show. But couldn't so I went all by My lonesome little self. hehe. I was skankin it up~!! hehe Then these guys came up to me and started talking to me and there was one cute one lol and he gave me a middle name. . . haha interesting i guess. OK but anywho. . . Code 415. . .They are so freaking rad~!! I really want one of their cds but I was gonna get one but they put their stuff away by the time I was buying crap. But yeah they are totally awesome I'll definitely go see them again. And The Gadjits, Well I guess they were good if you're into that kind of music. But that's not My deal. Then sL hit the stage yo~! gawd I so Luv them more everytime I see them. They were totally rockin the Casbah. It was great. And Then Slow Gherkin. My Gawd. They were better then last time I saw them. So yeah it was great. After the show I hung out with Derek for a little bit then went home. I got Slow Gherkin 'Shed Some Skin' ooooo great cd!! yep yep.

My first AYSO game is manana o the horror~~ I dont wanna go!!

Umm today I went to Lindsay's house and stayed there ALL day and we went out to dinner :P Oh and when I got home, I found a card sitting on my desk. LOL Mary you're too much~!! I love you to death~!! you really don't know.

3 days left~!!!!! tee-hee

Annie are you ok?
I'm so extremely bored I just thought I'd share. tee-hee

How Now Lowbrow~!
Oh My Lordy, It is sooo hot today~!! You have NOOO idea. Today was our first game [out in the scorching heat nonetheless] We won~ yay 2-0. Its quite the change from playing school.And.. I'm one of the captains? I dont know why though, because like the girls on my team are sooo much better then me. But Jeez, after one freaking game I already have a rather bad soccer tan. *sigh* It's so ugly ::hmph:: lol oh well. I took a cold shower right when I got home. Aw it was so wonderful hehe. Last night I stayed up for an hour decorating Mary's envelope haha.

2 days left~!!! yay Im so thrilled... and I don't reelie have a reason to be. . .

Tomorrow... .. .tee-hee
Today was muy muy fun. I went to church. And I saw Lindsey, I hadn't seen her in 2 weeks cuz she was in Canada. Im glad she's back~ And After Youth group, All my friends took me out to lunch at BJs at Seal Beach, then we when to Tawni and Renee's house and hung out. fun fun. Then Bryan took me home and harassed me all day might I add lol. But yeah good stuff~ Guess what Im doing for my birthday?! NOTHING!! yay I can't wait till tomorrow. ... pffft.

'It's so nice I wanna hear the same song twice'
Eck, yesterday was a horrible day [my birthday nonetheless]. I just had an awful day. Oh well I'm over it. Umm I didn't get anything for my birthday lol. Today I have practice, I really don't wanna go though, Im just not in the mood. We have 15 days till school starts jeez. Tomorrow is Future Mary's biRtHdAy~!! yay! Ok well that's all I guess.

its time to break out in song yo
::CLEARS THROAT::

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST FUTURE MARRRRRRY
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU

Nooothing
Today I went to practice...
I watched Get Over it for the second time. [I luuuv that movie]
and That's all.... fun fun... bleh
2 weeks from today school starts.. *sigh*
AND i havent talked to Sayde in quite some time... ::tear:: :(

'oi oi oi'
Umm yesterday... Yesterday was oodles of fun. Tee-hee I said oodles. Umm Hung out with Derek at the block, saw Rush hour 2, then saw the sL show at the hub. Oooh good stuff~ The show was so rad. yep yep. I can't wait till sL on the 8th now!! wooha

Today I'm ill.. oh joy. But I got my present for Sayde in the mail today. yay!! LOL I love my golden bubbles hehe. And of course I get a total 'Sayde' card. [ Its a picture of a little kid picking her butt and it says 'for your birthday, I picked out something special just for you'] haha good stuff~!!

Umm tomorrow.. RxB!! yay I'm so thrilled.

. ... . .. .Aint no glory in A war. . .. ... .
Yesterday I had a game and we lost.. Bleh. It was so frickin hot. my oh my. but then I came home and had 15 minutes to shower and get ready for the show. So Then Audrey came over and we went to RxB. oOo la la. good stuff~! Umm I'm still pissed off because Allister played on the small stage in the other room and I thought they were playing the big stage, so I didn't get to see them.!! *sigh* but I thought Midtown was perty well and RxB was just dandy. But it was so gross because 2 TIMES i had a sweaty guy with his shirt off fall on me and his sweaty back got all over my face and my mouth! gawd that was sick! Then After the show helped Derek pass out flyers and persuaded people to go on the 8th yay.!! That's gonna be a fun show. But I woke up at 12:09 today because my grandma forgot to wake me up for church!!!! Grr and 10 days left for school..... depression .....

'Is luv an infection or a sick addiction?'
-Hmm today I got new clothes for school.. yippdeedoo.

-I finally got my schedule. I'm so thrilled though because I made it in honors bio. woo I wasn't sure if I was going to because there's only one honors class and I'm not exactly the smartest cookie in the jar. but yay.

-And Then Charles called me [my youth pastor] and said there was an opening for the Catalina trip which I was so bummed before because it was filled but now I get to go yay. We leave Thursday I guess technically tomorrow.. gotta pack~!!

-After shopping, I spent the rest of the day at Lindsay's house and met Brent her new love. lol but yeah anyways...

-8 days till school starts, well technically 7! Jeez

-OoooOOh i Jazzed up my lavender binder with a bunch of sL pictures it looks neato yay~!

'The Things We Do tO the people that we love~!!'
Yay~!! dani's back yo. Ok so Oh My Oh My I had a blast in Catalina. I can't even begin to tell you how much fun I had. Im so glad I got to go. But yeah I don't want to go into detail because it'll bore you but if I talk to you I'll probably go on and on about it :P But Let's see... SCHOOL STARTS TOMORROW!!! it doesn't even feel like it though~ I dont even want to go. shoot me NOW~!!! Today I went to Lindsay's house and we got our nails done. oooo lol I went to Hot Topic to get a patch and I got a Good Charlotte pin. Jazzy Jazzy yo. Umm Oh and I went to the tanning salon. Ooo la la Sexay~!! haha But yeah Dani's no longer butt face white. i'm likein it. hee-hee Well I guess I'll go now I still need to shower and get my stuff ready for escuela! baaah.

It's funny how ever since school started, Nobody writes in these anymore. I guess I've just forgotten. Um weLL let's see... School sucks so bad. It's mad boring. and I think this is going to be a hard year for me. I hope not though =/ I hate waking up at 6:45 everyday it's not my deal yo. There's hardly any new people either except :Nathon: *swoon* :D but anyways. I have a game in about an hour got leave soon though. Im so glad its like kinda chilly outside rather then how its always hot when we play, because that sux. But tonight SUBURBAN LEGENDS cd release show~! I'm so thrilled its been like 2 weeks since my last show!! jeez. But yep I saved 40 bucks for 'merch' hehe. GEEK* =P All right I better get going, Gotta get ready for my game. And I say to you Good Day Sir.

Oh and Brent Lent me his AAF cd o Im in heaven!! woo :P

Man Oh Man
Woah. I feel Like .. I dunno. I don't talk to anybody anymore. It sux hardcore yo. Seriously though. But yeah..

Anyways. This weekend was hectic.
Saturday= I had a game, We Lost, but we played well. It was Subrina's team so that was fun. After that I went to the sL show. No ?s Asked was perty good. FPS was awesome. and of course sL was the freaking greatest~! yay! But the damn cd still isn't out yet. I was so looking forward to it too. but oh well I'll stop complaining.
Sunday= church, and then went to Lindseys house where the party was at and hung out with everyone. It was great fun.

School is horrid. But the good thing is that everyones really nice this year. Its so bizarre, I'm not used to it at all, everyones usually all Mean as hell and crap. Strange yet pleasing. But ok Im through ..being cool. haah ok im done.

Very Sad Day for America
So yeah... I think we're all pretty much speechless about the things that took place today. It's so surreal. I'm so scared though Jenna told me Prez. Bush declared war on Afghanistan! That seriously scares the hell out of me. It seriously makes you think though... Man Oh Man I spent like this whole day praying and Im going to keep on with it because I fear for all my friends. I just grieve for those families who lost love ones. I can't even imagine what it would be like to be walking down the street see that crash and have people jumping 100 stories out of building to their death ::shudders::

'Im graspin out straws, thinkin back to what I saw that night on the floor when we were all alone'
man oh man. Where to start... I haven't written in here in forever.

Wednesday -we won our game 4-0
Saturday- we won our game 4-1 yay.

Sunday- went to church. came home Danielle calls me at 2:30 "Im going to the Blink show tonight and my friends can't go anymore, you wanna go?" LOL i started laughing so hard being that I hated blink. Ok so I go, And we had really good seats like right up front and on the left. So Midtown comes out... Seen them before, yet again I thought they were just dandy. Then NFG comes on and they were really cool. Jordan is so cute =) and Blink were surprisingly freaking rad. I really loved the show. Ok so After the show We went back stage and met EVERYONE. im not going into detail in this stupid journal though cuz like i have homework lol but If I talk to you I'll tell you all my stories, but to make long story short. We sat around and ate pizza with Travis for like an hour so that was awesome. ok I'll stop now... lol but yeah.. sooo many stories =P