Big Brother 8 Daniele Donato Live Journal: July 2003 - Dec 2003

almost long.
Yeah I needed to get away.. shooooot.

So on Monday I left to my moms house. [in Temecula] it was a long.. lonely drive. Driving fast (the "flow of traffic" on Temecula highways is 89 mph, i got up to 105) listening to Azure Ray with the sun setting behind me. It was so weird because I was getting all emotional + philosophical, seeing the sun setting behind the hill as I just kept driving away into the dark.. It totally made me realize that's my life. [end]

I love my mother so much + my step dad is such a great guy sometimes. I love my little siblings as well. I miss them + wish they lived closer.

On Monday I started to read The Perks of Being A Wallflower because Annie told me to. And I have 30 pages left. For a minute today I thought I knew Charlie, it was weird. Yeah i love that book. duh.

I find that I talk to myself a lot when I drive, that is when I'm not singing.

And Hollister called me again. I had to go in again today.. I guess they'll call me tomorrow if I am hired? It's getting annoying. It's complete chaos actually.

Next Book : White Oleander [duh]

'I wish i could be on t r l ..."
I hate crying. My eyes are still puffy from crying historically twice today. Nothing goes right .. ever + I feel not good enough. for anything..

I went to the Library to return my book + get White Oleander. Its so big!! *sigh* I get intimidated just looking at it.

We went to the park too. Played on the playsets. And played kicking games with a basketball. I was super sweaty. It was hot today // Andrew bought me a cherry slurpee. !!! yay // played Life. Andrew cheats, its fun.

fourth was fun. Went towatch fireworks from the queen mary. they were cute. I'll post pictures when I get less lazy.

I went shopping today. I used to hate it, but now I ♥ shopping! I felt .. large so it makes me happy :] Sad stuff. I might go to Arizona with Joeys family for 9 days.. we'll see.


I need job ideas, where do you kids work??

today: I bought a camera!! finally how exciting. A Nikon n55. Its wonderful. I just need to learn how to work it. I'm excited to make beautiful things last.

I can't find Willy Wonka. :( I loose a lot of stuff.

Ooo I bought a cute watch ♥ ♥ and I applied to about 5 places I think. I need to apply more more more!! I can't wait to swim. I want to go bowling. + i cant wait till my birthday.. dont know why.

I'm leaving on Friday so I figured I'd say it now so you'd have time...

If you want a postcard from Arizona [( and your name's not Mary or Paul )] E-mail me your address. :]

Ps email = Thats So Boss Yo@aol.com

i finally got unlazy.. or just bored.

My 4th of July Fireworks were pretty.



Last night we went bowling. I was awful, I'm usually so good. [EGO]. Then Cortney got us in to see Pirates of the Caribbean. Umm. I give it a 5/10.

dani has a long post? NO effing WAY!!!
Arizona is too hot. Pools are a nice anecdote for that though. And waterparks in Arizona that's dimensions are about 2" x 2" make me laugh. Especially the slide that give you a super painful wedgie + makes your back scab up.

We watched about a million movies in the hotel room. Including the Country Bears. Movies are delightful. OMG They have a pet store in the mall with the cutest dogs + .. FERRETS!! I got to hold a ferret. You know they're illegal in CA so it's a big deal to me. :]

mmm Sonic burger is so good. I only had that in Texas before, I wish they had Sonics and Ferrets in CA.

Got fat too. Ate way too many cookies. oh + bowling in Az is cool. They have cool chairs, balls + shoes. Although most people there were white trash. + I got stared at like I had something on my face constantly. by everyone, especially old people. Tell your grandparents it's not nice. Thanx.

Yeah I'm super glad I'm back in good ol' Southern Cali. I missed it. It's way better out here, :] Az is lame. hah!

oh - Hotel Paper is an amazing cd!! ♥ ♥ ♥

i need life changing alterations.
Today I applied to work at the theater that Tasia works at. I adore Tasia. Then Me, Joey + Paul saw How to Deal. Such bad acting. It was funny. The movie was okay, I thought it would be waaay better, but it was super cheese. Then we got Audrey + went to eat at Black Angus. I've never been there. They said it was my birthday, I was sung to.. but I got a free yummy brownie. :] A lot of things are wrong. And I'm not happy with my life.

today was a waste. [insert stuff to leave out]. I went looking everywhere to find a shirt for my senior pictures, I don't own any black shirts besides band shirts. We went to Friscos and we were waiting in the drive thru and the lady in the van behind us was plucking hairs off her chin. *vomits*

I want:
to go to Disneyland.(more than anything)
a copy of The perks of being a wallflower.
tickets for Rilo Kiley at the glasshouse.
a new purse.

:(


Does anyone have any episodes of these shows on video??

Punky Brewster
Small Wonder
Off Centre
Young Americans

If you do please tell me. I'm in desperate need of copies.

stole this from danyel. fill this out or die. ♥

I _____ Daniele.
Daniele is _____.
If I were alone in a room with Daniele, I would _____.
I think Daniele should _____.
Daniele needs_____.
I want to _____Daniele.
Someday Daniele will _____.
Daniele reminds me of _____.
Without Daniele I am _____.
Memories of Daniele are _____.
Daniele can be_____.
Worst thing about Daniele is _____.
Best thing about Daniele is _____.
I am in _____ with Daniele.

this morning i woke up with a very huge... head. haha. Great thing to happen on senior picture day huh I fixed it but hah it was a scary look /



uh yeah + i was supposed to hang out with tasia.. shes not home..? I think I'll go start painting.

ps how weird did it feel in the cap + gown.!?!!

today i realized other than Joey, I have 1 friend [♥ paul.]. People hurt me so bad sometimes. I don't understand why people are so mean. Friends who make you cry aren't good friends.

why do people hide things from me? It makes me loose respect for them. I'm so mad at my grandpa. If you love a person don't you tell them important stuff? I am being so overwhelmed lately. Theres too much stuff happening to my life too fast. Will somebody please show me where the pause button is?

Toby Maguire is cute ♥

Andrew's gay + I don't like him anymore.
reason I told him how I met a guy nam Link before + how when I have a boy, that'll be his name. Now he's trying to steal it. NOT COOL

there's two words I can't get out. I want to so bad because of how much I hurt. I'm afraid if I say those two words I'll only hurt worse. It never changes + I'm sick of feeling this way.

got more application. (since i cant get a job). bought a few cute things. went to the circus!! (pictures coming soon). tomorrow i go see my senior proofs + pick them out. I'm scared. ps my computer is a piece of CRAP!!! Thats all.




1. A ruben studdered sand tomato i had to get a shot of that. hilarious.
2. me + joey just clowning around... *tee-hee*
3+4. my dear friend. she almost knocked me over though.
5. Joey + the llama.
6. Me + the llama. Look at his face. !! :)
7. The baby joey. so cute.
8. I think he was a medieval times run away. hes a jousting sheep.
9. this kid had a huge mohawk.. he was like 6?
10. biggest pig ive ever seen. pigs are gross.
11. my brother on stage of the hypnotist show pretending hes "out of it"

haven't updated in a while. My computer's a piece of trash. thats why.

Friday : circus!! mm so fun. I have like a million pictures but I'm sure I wont post them for a while.

Saturday : Ordered my senior pictures. They came out SO BAD Seriously, they're awful. I'm not happy at all. At night Paul picked me up for a show. mmm. the lead singer of noise ratchet got cuter. Yeah I had fun. But Adam tries way to hard to be the center of attention.

Sunday : early church. Then me Joey + Andrew went to pet horses. it was wonderful. Lots of sleeping thru out the day too.

Tomorrow Im going to palm springs. I'll be back thursday. I miss my mom. I haven't talked to my grandpa in over a week. I eat too much. I want one of those cute super short skirts. but i hate looking at myself in skirts. i need to go see Freaky Friday on Wednesday.

got back from palm springs . it was hot, but i didnt mind. the pool was nice when i actually felt like swimming. My nose bled a total of 5 times. When people make you mad, it ruins everything. Andrews funny to be funny with. I'm just glad I'm home. I don't want to go to Yosemite.

12 days..

no joey friday - monday.

day #1 - im going crazy!! i need a life or friends or something. Im so pathetic. i feel so lonely. what a loser huh.


somebody make me a cute purse/bag thing with a long strap that i'll adore.
somebody take me to disneyland.
somebody come be my friend and let's have fun + rent movies eat popcorn.

</3 so alone + no one to call up + make me feel better.

"I'm waiting by the phone, waiting for you to call me up and tell me I'm not alone."

i like making mix cds for myself.

i also like watching crossroads with paul.

I don't like reading people journals who talk about stuff that really isn't true. I also don't like getting major back pains from bad cramps.

I do like Mary though, she's a sex goddess. And my new favorite movie is Pecker.

9 days..


//series one- as usual
-- Name: Daniele
-- Nicknames: dani, wellie
-- Birthdate: August 20. 86.
-- Birthplace: up in the LBC.
-- Current Location: Bellflower
-- Eye Color: blU
-- Hair Color: blonde
-- Righty or Lefty: right.
-- Zodiac Sign: leo.
-- Innie or Outtie: medium.

// series two - describe
-- Your heritage: everything in Euro. all that white stuff.
-- The shoes you wore today: flip flops.
-- Your hair: is ugly.
-- Your eyes: i like them.
-- Your weakness: food.
-- Your fears: sharks, death (not my own).
-- Your perfect pizza: pepperoni. + pineapple
--One thing you'd like to acheive: visit all 4 disney parks.

// series three - what is
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: duh.
-- Your thoughts first waking up: turn on the air. or i have to pee.
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: face, hair, clothes.
-- Your best physical feature:eyes.
-- Your bedtime: never. literally.

// series four - you prefer
-- Pepsi or coke: vanilla pepsi.
-- McDonald's or Burger King: neither.
-- Single or group dates: Friends!
-- Adidas or nike: neither.
-- Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Limpton.
-- Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate.
-- Cappuccino or coffee: no.
-- Boxers or briefs: dont care.

// series five - do you
-- Smoke: no.
-- Cuss: no.
-- Sing well: i used to.
-- Take a shower everyday: nope. hehe.
-- Have a crush(es): if Andy, Joel, Robert count...
-- Who are they: duh.
-- Do you think you've been in love: yes.
-- Want to go to college: mmhm but cant find one.
-- Like high school: NO.
-- Want to get married: yes.
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys: dont know how. :x
-- Think you're attractive: only when I try reallllly hard.
-- Think you're a health freak: not at ALL.
-- Get along with your parents: yeah.
-- Play an instrument: no.

// series six - in the past 3 months, did/have you
-- Drank alcohol: n
-- Smoke(d): n
-- Done a drug: n
-- Made Out: y
-- Go on a date: kinda
-- Eaten an entire box of Oreos: n
-- Eaten sushi: n
-- Been on stage: n
-- Been dumped: n
-- Gone skating: n
-- Made homemade cookies: n
-- Been in love: y
-- Gone skinny dipping: n
-- Dyed your hair: y
-- Stolen anything: n

//series seven - have you ever
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?: negative.
-- Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: never
-- Been caught "doing something": no.
-- Been called a tease: yes.
-- Gotten beaten up: by Joey.
-- Shoplifted: when i was little.
-- If so, did you get caught: yes.
-- Changed who you were to fit in: no.

// series eight - the future
-- Age you hope to be married: mid 20s.
-- Numbers and Names of Children: 1 oe 2 max. Link + Mackenzie are the best names.
-- How do you want to die: suddenly.
-- Where you want to go to college: dont know!!!!!!
-- What country would you most like to visit: Anywhere in Europe or Australia!

Like Whoa!! So I do actually have a couple friends! Yes, I was taken to San Diego where the zo0 could be found you would have found us today. so fun. and even gifts.! no effing way. I don't get phone calls from friends for my birthday (8 days..) let alone get togethers + presents in my honor! Wow.

if i see one more commercial for "Uptown Girls" I'm going to pull out my hair!! I HATE BRITTANY MURPHY!

ps i need to post soooo many pictures!!

Lets see... I'm leaving for a week to Yosemite tomorrow morning so I need to think of everything to post tonight.

I now weigh 107lbs. don't know why i loose weight, i just keep eating. Rilo Kiley was fun . Paul's too nice. Everyone's doing really nice stuff for me for my birthday this year. I like it. I want to go shopping soooo bad!

For my birthday (wednesday), I would love to death to receive voice mails from all of my hot LJ friends (that means YOU) my cell # : 562) 209-1916. I seriously hope to get messages from a lot of you. xxxooo. happy birthday me.

I'm turning into such a girl. you wouldn't even recognize me... yeah whatever. *sigh* money doesn't get you very much anymore. suck.

ps. i want a new user name.

my future is going to amount to nothing.

life is miserable. somebody come and fix it for me.

its gross when your dad dates girls who are 4 years older than you.

skool is in 3 days. thats lame.

i had fun today. i need to paint my nails. i need to dye my hair too. i suck.

liking hilary duff is funny + cute. someone buy me her cd.

today i watched 3 hours of "punk'd". That show was funny. It made me laugh. Can you believe that I have one more day of vacation + then I have to go back to school + my boyfriend will be leaving for the weekdays. Sucks. oh yes + I'm the only person at my school who didn't get their schedual. go me. I want so many friends this year. but no new kids ever come. i painted my nails REEL cute. i should go professional. i need to dye my hair though i look like butt.

oh but the coolest thing ever was when i was watching "punk'd" Frankie Muinez had a shirt with my last name on it. I was tripping out. I want that shirt so bad now~!!!
xxx.

summer's over. I cried. im scared. cuz school makes me cry a lot + be mad, sad, frustrated, confused and so many other feelings that I hate. tomorrow im going to walk around school singing garbage all day "this is not my idea of a good time".

i went to buy the hilary duff cd, but they didnt have it :( do you really think I'm dumb for this? its cute. hehe.

i need to post pictures soooo bad so many great pictures + i keep getting more. oh yeah bad pictures too. i got my senior pictures, and headshots back. whatever i'm a loser.

why is it that when you have to pee, then go into the stall, as soon as you see the toilet you're about to pee all over yourself?

i have an interview tomorrow in irvine. ps its not for a job.

(to be in an add for tilly's) shhhhh. ;]

um yeah i haven't been online in 2 days and then all of a sudden LJ gets all.. weird. I'm confused! ooo but i bought the hilary duff cd today. go me. ♥ First week of school done.. a thousand more to go. Turned in 4 more applications. oooh yeah ima loser. i'm missing something...

today i had like hardly any classes. I helped with ID pictures. And i got to take 3. Theyre supurb. I need to post them. i dyed my roots so now i dont look like white tash. yes, i also dyed my cats hair. hes silly.

ps i think im gonna be in charge of after-prom. but if its a chain how effing cool. ♥ me.

I go to school everyday and I'm happy. Then I come home and cry everyday because my grandma is so mean to me or I'm lonely.

Its stupid how im happier at school then in my own home.

whoa two posts in one day...
my future isn't looking bright.

so I want to go into fashion design and photography. Yet, I can only choose one, because it's impossible to do both. I have no idea how i'm going to choose.

I'm too stupid to get into any college I actually want to go to. And every other college any idiot can get into and I feel like I should be on a higher level then that. But maybe i just think too high of myself in that aspect. I'm probably going to end up going somewhere far and ruining my life and having no friends.

actually i have to choose which i want to major in asap. because no school has both photography and fashion. and thoes which do, there is no ge just right into your major for 4 years. so its harder for me than your adverage joe. and every college i want to go to i already know i wont get in so..

i honestly can say i hate my life. I'm always letdown after my hopes are so high. So yeah, I'm too ugly for Tillys because they dont want me in their shoot after they asked me.. I just don't know what's wrong with me. If I knew I would change it, but I dont. I don't like myself. I don't like anything about myself.

im gonna make a real post since I never do anymore...

I started a new class on Thursday night. It's a monologue class. My teacher told me I'm the sh!t. But i don't curse. My teacher, he's cool. Friday we went to see Matchstick Men. So good. Go see it. Saturday we rented some movie .. The Emperor's .. something. It was good. but long. Also we watched A Guy thing. That movie was really funny. I ♥ Julie Stiles. She is so pretty and has the best body in history. We picked up Andrew and Danyel and a few of their friends from KNotts. I got a huge Charlie Brown Sucker and OMG did i feel so cool. Sunday we ate Sonic. the only one is Southern Cali. waha.

So it kinda sucks when your grandma blatantly shows that she can't stand you. When you're driving to school and out of nowhere she says, "By the way when you're 18 I want you out of the house." Yes, did i mention your life beats mine?

why am i so obsessed with tv??

-does anyone watch cupid?? Im in love with Robert!! hes too freaking cute. That Austrian accent freaking does it for me. !!!!♥♥!!!!

i need a new place to host pictures. mines broken. There are a selected few people who make me so happy. ♥ Going to shows with your boyfriend and teling him youre going to hook up with a cute boy is so fun. ps. i dont know my monolague. and im already failing all my classes in week 3!!!!

me and tasia bought our bright pink shirts for our senior class pictures at the beach. Cort and Audrey are getting one too. So we'll be all super cool and stand out. Pauls getting neon green. def. not a girly boy. ♥ the football game was fun last night. i took pictures for yearbook. So every picture we took, me or tasia got somewhere in the background. so we'll be everywhere in the yearbook!! we're so effing cool. Red Robin is fun with friends. and... yes, i feel... weird but i cant explain it.

right now. i want to die.

mmm surprise phone calls from boys you were once in love with are so amazing. On another note, I hate being mad and yelling on the phone. I feel fat and ugly today. I hate these days.

*people who made me happy today:
♥ Mary. Paul. Derek. ♥


ps. I miss Andrew. I never get to hang out with you and talk to you anymore. :(

pss. anyone who wants to be a doll and completely redo my journal layout, i'll make out with you.

Q i remember derek. that was from forever ago. i still have my SL cookie!

A yes derek. boy oh boy. haha. he IMs me randomly every now and then. but he called me last night and we talked for like an hour. I might start hanging out with him again sometime.. but just as friends this time. :x

A nobody ever calls me. only joey and thats nothing exciting. lol. it was just a random phone call. haha but i love you beautiful.